Bullet Points

Note: This has NOTHING to do with the lastest entry about listing and stuff…

So know that business is out of the way….

I’m feeling bloody angsty. I don’t know why. It’s been kinda here since about Sunday morning and it ain’t going away. There are people I don’t want to deal with and people I just WANT to deal with… I have no idea if that makes sense, but… hey! Rambly! That’s the point….

Work feels like it’s slogged by today, although really it’s been half the day so far… Thank you podcasts and SModcast and Mugglecast and… well… you get my idea.

MY FUCKING COMPUTER WON’T TURN ON. Bull shit. This is fucking bullshit is what this is. I can’t believe this crap. It’s sitting at home right now in unplugged silence while it sits in time-out. I’m so fed up with its bullshit…

I have a three page Spanish paper due tomorrow. It’s about stuff, hypothetically, two movies. One of which I saw about two years ago? (And I don’t think I even saw the last third of it) and the other of which I ain’t never seen… And I have to write a Spanish paper about it. Angst.

I wrote a traditional, iambic pentameter, ABABCDCDEFEFGG Shakespearean sonnet on Sunday night before the computer crashed (That’s right, it’s been shut down for 36 hours and beeps at my like a whiny bitch when I try to turn it on…) and it was AWESOME… And then I wrote a rewrite of it but I couldn’t do anything about it because my computer won’t turn on…

I miss Emma. More than that, I’m not saying.

I need to update this more, but I have no idea what to put on this blog… Also, I want to start my podcast.

I love my iPod. I love my car. I hate money. I hate gasoline. Fuck the oil companies and their greediness..

Seriously? Fuck humanity. What a bunch of evil fucks.

I’m sorry, I’m saying “fuck” a lot, but I’m just frustrated and angsty and… GAR! Fuck!

Hokay. I’ll shut up now. I’m done.

My List o’ Stuff

Because Paul and Angela and other people who I’m too tired to remember have started this… list thing and I’m a lemming slash person who needs a new thing to do that is bloggy and will keep me happy…. So I’ll start off with something so freakin awesome I can never top it…

So things you don’t know about me…

• My name’s Matt, I’m 19 (an odd age) and have been for an entire month, and I go to the University of California San Diego.
• I only ever really wanted to go UCSD, and now I am, I think, nay, know! I made the right decision.
• I try to live my entire life without regrets. I believe that everything I’ve done to this point has defined who I am and I can’t really change that so there’s no point in wishing I’d done something different… That said, I do try to be anormal and add one regret… So I have one regret that’s slowly becoming two…
• I have SO much inertia it’s disgusting. Starting something is awful, but once I’ve started I find it hard to stop… This is true for TV, reading, and writing… Quality can push it in either way, though…
• I can’t not believe in a higher power slash God like existence of somewhere, but my beliefs are far too nuanced and detailed for a small bullet point
• I often times miss things the first time through, but then I go back and sometimes I’ll see what people see… Other times, not so much…
• I don’t listen to people when they tell me something is good… Eventually I’ll get around to it, but rarely will I just go out and experience something new of my own accord randomly if it’s good… But if it’s bad I find myself drawn to it… It’s so weird…
• Guilty pleasure? I freakin love Match Game… It’s vile and disgusting, but I freakin love it.
• I do think that Joss Whedon is God. I think he came down to humor me and inspire me and speak to me as a person and one of my life goals is to have dinner with him some day…
• I will read anything by the aforementioned Joss Whedon, Brian K. Vaughan, and Bryan Fuller.
• I freakin love musicals, but I can’t stand most of the stuff most people I like like…
• I find myself drawn to cult stuff as opposed to mainstream stuff.
• I hate a great many people… The little things about them bother me… Get the little thing big enough and I won’t want anything to do with it
• I find myself drawn to feminine types in both writing and real life
• I can’t be gay because I hate stereotypical men way too much…
• Even though I might not like something, that doesn’t mean I don’t see the craft in it… Take poetry: I frakkin hate poetry, but I can still see the craft in a good poem even though it’ll confuse the hell out of me and I won’t understand it
• I censor my swear words by silencing my voice when I come to them… Or I say the word frak
• In fact, I say the word frak a lot…
• I freakin love television and comics and movies and the internet and modern media… There’s just something about it
• I’m a creature of violent passion and love… Almost Hufflepuff-esque, although if I had to classify myself as a Hogwarts House it’d be Ravenclaw.
• If I were in the Darkest Night, I’d have an Indigo ring/staff…. They haven’t said yet exactly how that works, and yet it does…
• I hate inconsiderate people
• For me, things have to have purpose, some sort of sense of semblance about… you know… Things that I can connect with… Art for art’s sake doesn’t really work if it doesn’t do anything…

So yeah… That’s me in a very small nutshell… Of… Yeah…